There IS A KINK in my hose

Funny how God reminds of us of things when we are quiet enough to hear him.   When I started watering my garden,  I squeezed the handle, trigger, whatever it's called, no water came out of the hose. I had already stretched the hose out all the way to the far garden, it's got to be a couple hundred feet, or more.  Great now I  have to walk the length of the hose & look for the kink. I didn't want to do that,  I just wanted to water my gardens!!!!!!!!  As I was walking, to find the kink, I was reminded of a few things;  First, if there is a problem in my life & my life is not working the way I want it to I NEED to take a few steps back, to find the problem. Yup I dont like back tracking either, but sometimes I have no other choice if I want to move forward.  Usually if a problem comes up over & over & over it's an old issue. I need to find out where it came from. Do I always need to be perfect, does it bother me when my kids ............  How about when my best friend always....... Some times I need to go all the way back to my childhood to understand why I "do that", why that bothers me so much.  Sometimes I only need to go back a few years. Either way, I need to face it (accept there is a problem) trace it,(understand where the problem comes from) & erase it. (ask for help from God) yup finding the kink in your hose, the root of your discomfort, is painful, trust me it's worth it to be happy, joyful, & free.  I have learned not to search to hard to figure out why I'm so insecure, jelouse, controlling, manipulative, mothering, sarcastic,..........  When I am ready to learn that lesson, God will show me the answers as long as my mind is open enough to see the answers.  I do not rush my journey, if I do I am sure to miss some amazing views.  I started my journey to a better me 6 years ago.  I've worked a program, done 12 steps, done some steps what feels like 12 times.  My growth will never be done, I will never be done exploring what makes me who I am. As long as I can still take a breath of air painful issues will keep coming up, I will continue to dig deeper to find the root of my issue.  Turns out the hose was kinked all the way by the spigot.   I unkinked it. Great now I can enjoy providing my flowers with some of what they need to grow.   As I was walking back to the other end of the garden hose, to water my flowers, I noticed the feeling of the grass under my bare feet. Perhaps if I wore shoes a little more often I wouldn't keep stubbing my toes.  1 Peter 5:10 And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.